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And she says please watch over me....

April 11th, 2007 (06:43 pm)
current location: basement again
current song: my sweet charade - stephen kellogg & the SK6ERS

And I thought it was a long time between my last update. Sorry I don't keep up with this thing as much. Life's just been way more than I can handle at the moment.

First of all my plans to move to Tulsa went to shit. I'm not going to say it's any one persons' fault, it was really a combination of 2 things. Things were being miscommuniated and what not, plus once it all became so real I realized I'm not ready to move yet. Atleast not so far away from my family and the friends I have up here. Plus I really really love my job, even if it does kick my ass from time to time, I love it.

So speaking of my job so much has been going on there. First of all Chad (my boss) was hurt on the job at the beginning of March. A Catering Cambro (what we put coffee in for catering orders) fell from a top shelf onto his arm and he's going to be out until May 7th!! MAY 7TH! So the DM that nobody likes has been running our store and as much as I don't like him he's trying to get everything worked out with the people who seem to not want to do their jobs. Ontop of Chad getting hurt, the other 3 shifts at work are under investigation for $80 that went missing from one of our safes so now I am the only person who is allowed to do the deposit, because I was not involved or on duty when everything happened. The only thing that sucks is that now on my days off I have to go up to work for an hour or so and do the deposits. I mean it's not terrible but on days like today where it's snowing and raining (at the same time) and my car SUCKS at life i don't want to. But the good thing is that with all the extra work I'm doing my DM can't deny me a good raise come raise time. But another downside is I'm putting in about 42-45 hours a week. Which means on my days off I sleep. Or be lazy.

In the last update I posted I spoke about how Ryne and I hadn't talked in a while. Well that all suddenly changed last weekend. I got home from work and was on AIM (like I always am) and he IMed me. I don't think he realized I had taken him off my buddy list so when he IMed me friday it asked if I wanted to accept it. Out of curiosity I said yes and we started having a somewhat normal conversation. He asked how I was, if I was moving, how things were. When I mentioned to him things about work he found the perfect opportunity to bring up our past few rendevous and mentioned how we should get a hotel room again. I was kind of like "....." It's been 3 months since we've talked (aside from some random IM from him about Pat McGee) so I didn't really know what to say. Anyway the conversation suddenly changed into basically him telling me we should pick up where we left off. That he had had some sort of dream about us (or me I'm not sure) that sparked this sudden interest in hooking up again. So that was our conversation from Friday. So that left me ALL of Saturday and most of Sunday to sit and stew in this sudden news. To think about weather or not it was something I wanted to invest my time in again. So after not talking for a few days I IMed him Sunday to see if A he was intoxicated while he IMed me which apart of me was hoping so I could just chalk it up to him being drunk (but alas he was sober) and B if this dream was his only reason for the sudden interest in me again. Which apparently it is. Apparently according to him I'm really good in bed (LMAO I know right?) So because I know if we did "hang out" I would have NO self control at all I said I was ok with it. Which I am. Or apart of me is. But things have to be different this time. I mean I'm not looking for a relationship from him... not in anyway, but I don't want to have to put all the effort into making our little nights o fun happen. I don't want to have to drive an hour away AND pay for a place to go. I really don't feel like I should have too. I put my effort in the last time, now it's his turn. But at the same time, if we do make plans we don't have a place to go. Unless I get this apartment in Huntley I'm eyeing. Then he can come out here. But if not then hotels are our only option really. And given the first 2 times I didn't care about the money, but spending $75 every time adds up. And I mean before we weren't hooking up every weekend or anything, it was basically just once a month but still. That was $150 I spent out of my money. But it's like if thats our only option and I have to front the cash I'll do it. Because we all know how I feel/felt about the sex with Ryne and I would be a damn idiot to pass that up. I don't know it's such a complicated situation really. I hope I am able to get my own place ASAP so this won't be a problem. Yeah so I don't know whats going to happen or what's going on with him. It seems like all he wanted to do was rattle my feathers and get me all worked up again because there hasn't been much communication unless I initiate and there is NO WAY IN HELL I'm going to keep this up. If he wants it so badly he knows where to find me. RIGHT? Right.

Hmm lets see what else is there to talk about. OH YES so there's a possibility that I'll be in Tulsa for a few days for this members only thing Hanson is trying to put together. That is if the fuckers ever put the INFO up for it. I already took off work and stuff. Just need the details. Apparently they are trying to set something up for the 10 year anniversary of the release of MON and plan on rerecording MON acoustically and are inviting members of their fanclub. But again only if/when they put the info up.

So there it is... another look into my pathetic life. LMAO. I hope you enjoyed it.