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you're hurt right down to the core....

May 20th, 2007 (09:16 pm)
current location: basement/computer chair
current song: I'm like a lawyer witht he way I'm always trying to get you off - FOB

Okay seriously my sister is the most over dramatic ass I've ever had to deal with. Long story short I wrote this blog about a conversation (which was pretty much one sided: my sister/boyfriend talking to me) which left me pretty upset. The conversation delt with me moving into their house for 3 months or until I got my own place. So here is the So the time has come, I've got two more weeks here in my parents house and really I don't know what to do.

I had this talk with my sister and her boyfriend a few weekends ago and honestly the talk in itself left me feeling really shitty. I know my sister means well and wants to help me, but the talk we had basically left me with the decision that I would rather live out of my fucking car then live with them. Even if it was for only a month. Which is my plan anyway. Nicci, this girl at work, and I have been actively looking for a place of our own.

The reason I'm pretty upset about this talk my sister, her boyfriend, and I had is that the things they said were really hurtful, even if they didn't mean them. Basically what they said was that I would be/am an inconvience to them and their life, that I would have no real place there, that I am just like my father, and a mooch. That I had a year to find a place of my own but didn't. I pretty much felt like the biggest piece of shit when I left, and cried my entire way home.

The thing that I think really upsets me is that they were talking like I didn't even try. Like I just spent the last year doing nothing to get my own place. Like it's clearly just so easy to find a place that I can afford. And the thing is, like the first 4-5 months of this year they are talking about I didn't have a good paying job. So my parents kept spending money on fixing my car/renewing my plates and other things. So when I finally did get my job at Caribou I ended up owing them about $500. Then I got my checking account and honestly the first few months I had it I didn't really do what I should've to keep my savings account up but I've gotten alot better.

And I mean it's not like I didn't try finding a place in OK. But you know that whole situation didn't go like I had planned, and then Chad got hurt at work and I haven't heard from him in like 2 months. So I did start looking, I tried my hardest but things just weren't working out for me. And the fact that they just sat there and told me I didn't try pisses me off.

Luckily I have a really great friend in Chicago. She called me yesterday and asked how my moving plans were going and I told her about what happened with my sister and stuff. So she said she should talk to her landlord and if its okay with him/her I could move in with them (her and her boyfriend) So i should find out at the beginning of this week if it's okay and if it is I'm moving to the South Side of Chicago for a few months. I intend on travelling out to work, which won't be to bad because I can just take 90/94 pretty much all the way to work. I even told my boss once I move out there no opens for the time being.

Then Nicci and I can find a place and I'll move back out there.

Anyway thats my deal right now.



Kristina

So this was the message I got from my sister:

I only have a couple of things to say to you so I will make it short and sweet.

First, how fuckin dare you. Not to long ago you refered to someone as acting like a child well look who's talking. At 22 and with me being your sis I would think if you had a problem with me you would be able to talk to me about it instead of letting me find out on fucking My Space. Doesn't help that you sat there acting like everything made sense. So, thanks for the slap in the face.

Also, the more this situation goes on the more I see how much you are like daddy. So your current situation has nothing to do with your own actions right? Everyone else is just trying to bring you down and saying things just to hurt you. No one is trying to help you. Do don't have the problem, everyone else does, right? Gee, who does that sound like?

Finally, you think you have it so hard? Well, I bet you will think differently when you have burned all the bridges with all the people who have tried to help you. You thought we are being so hard, mean , and selffish. Thats fine. You just got what you wished for. I no longer want to help you in any way shape or form. You are no longer welcome to stay in our home. Not now (although I understand you no longer wanted to) but also not EVER!!!

Good luck and I hope you find a way to get it together.

Aimi

and here is my response:

You know what Aimi thats fine. Be pissed at me because I wrote a blog. Whoopied fucking doo. Get over it. I intended on talking to you but when I called you yesterday you didn't answer. So I wrote a blog instead.

And what a way to put words into my blog that aren't even there. Feel free to read what you want in there. Because clearly I called you and Boggie selfish, unfair. I said what you said was hurtful and you knew full well it upset me because I know you saw me crying. So don't act like this is all some big surprise.

If you really think I'm just like daddy then thats your own problem. Because clearly I'm not. I found a way to make everybody happy. I think you're just pissed because now you won't be able to keep tabs on me. You won't be able to control me.

Feel free to do what you will. Because the blog was just a blog. If you're going to seriously cause all this unnecessary drama over it well then that would be just like you. I'm not going to apologize for it because I did nothing wrong.

So screw you....

Let me just respond to this....

Also, the more this situation goes on the more I see how much you are like daddy. So your current situation has nothing to do with your own actions right? Everyone else is just trying to bring you down and saying things just to hurt you. No one is trying to help you. Do don't have the problem, everyone else does, right? Gee, who does that sound like?

Nowhere in that blog did I blame anyone but myself for the situation I was in. I didn't blame you, or mom, or anyone. I said I could've done better when I first got my checking account. I said I was the problem. Seriously go read my fucking blog again before you message me putting what YOU want to see in there. The only thing I said about you guys was how I felt about the conversation. I didn't blame you for anything. So instead of going somewhere where I felt unwanted I found my own solution. If that makes me a bad person fine then I'm a terrible, horrible person. But again please reread my blog before you go ranting to me about things I didn't even say.

Good fucking day.

So yeah FYI I'm moving to the South Side of Chicago in 2 weeks.

YEY!

Kristina